“Blurred“ explores emotions of stress and unsteadiness through photography and visualises these feelings:
I am searching, trying, worrying, questioning.
Feeling confused, but full of ideas.
Life is slow, life is fast, life is blurred.
Is this what my life should look like?
Is this the place I should live in?”
I am growing into a state of not reacting to disturbances,
staying calm despite of uncertainties.
Believing that everything will develop
like it is meant to be and one is only supposed to
feel, sense, enjoy, give and be.
Every day … the same
things surrounding me every day
that I don’t know any different
that I don’t see because they are so familiar.
The steady routines of everyday life, the well-known environment, the same values.
I have an everyday life in two different places.
Two well-known environments, two habits.
Familiar values, viewpoints, habits that clash into each other.
Two places, divided by a journey on the plane.
Between the countries, I am the observer of everyday life around me.
The people in those places… no matter which…
Are living their everyday life, self-evident.
The every day that rules their thinking and life.
I can feel the everyday life in both of these places as everyday life or as something special.
Just depending on my condition, on my mood.
“Between everyday life” expresses the feelings that arise from living between cultures, between countries, between realities. Places, very different from each other, are layered together in my imagination to become a new place in myself.
“Each one has to find his peace from within. And peace to be real must be unaffected by outside circumstances.” Mahatma Gandhi
„Reality(s)“ is dealing with the interplay of our outer environment and the inner state of mind. Two layers are describing the different states of the „outer-” and the „inner world”. The project visualises the mutual influence of the inner state of mind and the outer world on each other. This inner state which in turn influences the perception of our environment and makes it to „our reality”.
What is our mind doing when we are in a calm and relaxed situation? Are thoughts jumping back and forth? Or is it as calm as outside? What is the mind doing in situations that mean stress to us? Are we aware of these reactions?
Through the photographic representation of subtle and intangible processes, the project wants to encourage the viewer to observe his own state of mind and to analyse the perception of reality.
“Lost wings” relates to small children’s natural and direct attitude to life. To the almost infinite joy, the feeling of absorbing new experiences like a sponge, to getting lost in the observation of the surroundings. The anger that comes when it comes and goes when it goes.
With the means of multiple exposure, deliberate change of perspective and selective focus, a poetic reality is created that vividly portrays these strong feelings.
Observing the habits of children, the photographer went on a search for the feelings of her childhood. She is questioning how and why one loses the authenticity towards one’s feelings, may they be positive or negative.
The abstract tracing of feelings in the context of childhood deliberately leaves space and provokes reflections, reflections about oneself, society, children, about education and relation.